August 02, 2016- Tuesday @ 5:48 pm
When you are feeling miserable because you desired to cry but your eyes would not dare shed a single drop of tear. When a final hug is finally given but you don’t want to let go because you know that it would be months or perhaps years that another hugs would happen, yet the luxury of time of being with that person longer has been snatched away from you. And all you can do is hug that person tightly and hopingly wish that parting ways will not happen and even wish that it is just a dream. Yet a coming true of a wish is as aloof as a blue moon would impossibly appear in the dark and cloudy night. This parting ways is a sweet misery, a misery in a way that a friendship will not be nurtured by togetherness but will be tested by time and distance of being apart. Sweet because of the avalanche of memories that came rushing back to you that had shaped the seemingly unbreakable bond of your friendship. The happy, the sad, the rivalry, the jealousy, the frustrating, the letting go, and many more moments that you’ve been together. Those bitter and sweet moments you shared together were remembered as if they just happened yesterday. As you relinquish her from having your arms around her and finally face her, only a smile that did not reach your eyes slip out of your lips. When only “God bless” escape from your mouth when you wanted to say more than those words to pour more blessings on her as she goes to the place where she desired that God has planted in the organ that pumps her blood. As she walked away without a second thought of looking back, you just cast your eyes downward hoping to hide the subtle melancholy that you felt inside. Feeling that a pair of eyes looking back to where you’re left off, you tried to gather yourself and waved enthusiastically to the assuring form from afar that some time in the near future you’ll meet again. When you almost let the sadness you felt in your inner being swallowed you and bring you into the oblivion of being alone, at last a voice from behind you awaken and brought you from the apparently unending chapter of your life to the moment of reality, saying “Let’s go.” And you turn your back, cast a final glance and finally you let out a genuine smile sneak out of your lips as a mark of that unforgettable minute that happened in the story of your life. You will always remember her as one of the thread, a beautiful thread, that God has used in weaving your life. She’s part of the tapestry that God is making.