I dont want you to be sad. I dont want to be sad. I know why you get so mad. I know why you are the way you are. But as I said it still dont make it right. You are mentally abusing someone that went through alot of years of abuse. So when you do that your while strengthing me because thats what happens when im mad or sad. Your also making my mind weak. Your not practicing what you preach with me. Which Ill be honest im glad you came at me like you did in the past it did make me wake up. I know what I need to do. Im trying so hard. You have no idea what im really thinking. And what I really Understand or have learned through alot. You dont know all im capable of. You dont know my past relationship. Or how I was which was not myself. You dont know because you werent there. So stop bullying me into learning. I know what kind of life I want and its not this. But I also know that while I may have not been my best self ive not consistently but Ive really tried at times. But its hard when you keep getting knocked back down by the one person who is supposed to help you up. Thats what a good partner does. You have allready instilled in my brain every horrible thing or bad flaw of mine. So why not try to see what you get with being there for me. Im not perfect but my mind works best when im not doubting, overthinking, assuming or spending any of my sense on unnecessary things. Which im not doing that anymore. I know you love me. I know you care about me. I know you thats just the way you talk. However, keep your hands to yourself and the screaming, yelling and name calling to yourself. I dont need to hear it. If you didnt think I was capable you wouldnt be here. So stop with the bulls**t. Stop doubting me ,stop speculating, assuming. If your tired and have a bad day keep to yourself if you cant engage with me in a positive way. Or if you want to say something negative keep it to yourself ive heard it all. Why dont you just try for a week my way. And see where im at. Give me a chance thats all im asking.