Sometimes I sit back, and I think, what it could have been like being together at this very moment. We could sit, our backs together, face pointing in opposite directions but our heart seeing the same. We don't have to face each other, to drown into these moments. We could talk endless talks, about moments we lived together, things we loved and things we wish to make happen, we could look up above and our heads would collide in doing so. We would laugh... and then at the breaking point of our laughs I would whisper "I LOVE YOU"... you would turn around, hold my chin in your smooth palms.. looking deep in my eyes, you would utter "I Love You Too", and then I would sit in your lap and you would comb my hairs with your fingers...
I would hold your palm in mine... and look at you, searching deep within your soul, and this satisfying feeling of love would leave us speechless .. The silence making time stand still... you would simply come down very near, your lips almost touching mine... You whisper
"Dont look at me like this",
"Why ?" I ask and I would keep looking deeper and deeper.... until finally our lips would meet, and this kiss will grow passionate, full of love and emotions... and then you would stop, suddenly....still our lips almost touching... and would whisper
My palms still in yours... you would then tell me to leave you... I would be reluctant, but then you would let go of my hand & put me down from your lap, stand up and say"It's for the best"
I recall the utter pain of of a shattered heart and I open my eyes & see my empty room & my empty bed ........ A dream ... A dream so real that I can still feel the ache of pain in my heart.
And yet my heart lies with yours Jaan .... still, In Love... <3